As some of you know I have a few quirks - Most are slightly annoying. Dyscalculia and hemophobia are two I’ve mentioned before.

I’ve several others best glossed over but one of late has caused a few problems. My affianced is finding it tricky. She doesn’t know how to respond.

The title’s the thing - It’s hard to explain. In short I’m not always there. I disconnect then view events as if they’re happening to somebody else.

The cause of course is childhood trauma - All of which is ancient history. My point today concerns the fact it causes a problem with intimacy.

I don’t mean sex. At that I‘m amazing! Okay! I’m not! But you’re not to know! It’s more a case of caring and sharing - I can’t or won’t do love.

Being fair this was explained well before we became engaged. Everyone nodded their understanding. Now it’s clear they hadn’t a clue!

Not to worry - Life goes on! FYI - I’m not seeking sympathy. I’m merely waffling and thinking aloud. If I were you I’d skip this post. Me - I’m off to work.

Adam ... x