Contemplating Death

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Contemplating Death

by Kibitz @ 2008-07-03 – 11:02:46

I’m in love with a woman I‘ve no chance of winning.

She’s Spanish and speaks with a mind blowing accent.

This morning she offered me freshly brewed coffee.

We chatted ... we laughed ... I asked her out.

Her radiant smile diminished the sun ... even as her head shook slowly.

My pulse skipped a beat. An eclipse of the heart.

My world's now filled with lengthening shadows.

The deepest of which is cast by her partner.

I’m a twat. I’m embarrassed. My coffee’s gone cold.

I’m off to contemplate death.

Well ... have a cigarette anyways.

Adam … x
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- la_spice
- 2008-07-03 @ 11:08:46
Ah well - c'est la vie
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- - Kibitz
  - 2008-07-03 @ 11:29:21
  C’est la vie ...
  
  Er .. sorry .. but I don’t speak Spanish.
  
  That was half my problem.
  
  Adam ... x
  
  P.S. True. Especially mine. At 10.22 this morning.
  - - la_spice
    - 2008-07-03 @ 11:57:53
    C'est la vie is French for that's life!!
    
    You didn't do French at school either!
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- titsaleenabumsqueak
- 2008-07-03 @ 11:39:17
Bless you sweetie!!!

This might help...

Book a crash course in Spanish!!
And a one way ticket for the boyfriend to somewhere far far away!!!

Tshadows will be gone for ever ...

Well we can but hope!! lol
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- - Kibitz
  - 2008-07-03 @ 12:19:19
  Lol ... suddenly I’m rich?
  
  Courses .. tickets .. contract killers ...
  
  Mmm ... Good advice.
  
  Tshadows are clearing already.
  
  x
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- kendersrule ^Pro
- 2008-07-03 @ 11:45:42
Aaaaawwww! partner as in boyfriend or girlfriend? Is best if she's gay, at least it's a reasonable excuse then!
She's obviously bonkers if she turned you down and is straight!
xx
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- - Kibitz
  - 2008-07-03 @ 12:21:17
  Lol ... thanks.
  
  Bonkers and straight applies.
  
  Adam.
  
  P.S. Or .. of course .. depending on ones point of view ... she actually has excellent taste ... x
  - - kendersrule ^Pro
    - 2008-07-03 @ 12:24:51
    how dare she malign you in this way! biiiihatch! being straight //right in your face//!!
    
    plenty. of. fish type dudettes. around somewhere.
    xx
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- Chyna_Doll
- 2008-07-03 @ 11:58:59
1.) I didn't know you smoked. I have a mental inage of that in my head now!

2.) Sorry you got turned down. Funny some women don't mention about their partners until later! They should make it more clear in the fist place!
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- - Kibitz
  - 2008-07-03 @ 12:27:01
  1) Sorry to disappoint you. I am trying hard to quit.
  
  2) That would be useful. If perhaps a tad impractical?
  
  3) I’m more annoyed with myself than anything.
  
  4) Don’t worry. My shattered ego will eventually mend.
  
  Adam ... x
  - - lucreziaborgia ^Pro
    - 2008-07-03 @ 13:12:11
    Adam,
    
    Has it occurred to you that she is only trying to protect herself? Her refusal is not due to a lack of mutual attraction, rather BECAUSE OF IT. Depending on how strong you feel about her, I would just keep trying and being charming, which won't be a problem for you. What have you got to lose? But stay clear of reality, partners and practicalities; hiding in somebody else's wardrobe is not very pleasant.
    xxLuxx
    - - Kibitz
      - 2008-07-03 @ 13:50:39
      Mmm ... I like your logic.
      
      And I am well smitten.
      
      But ... if she's taken ... To me that's fini.
      
      Wardrobes ... point taken ...
      
      I am a tad claustrophobic.
      
      Adam ... x
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  - - jackfrost ^Pro
    - 2008-07-05 @ 08:49:52
    trying to quit...google throat cancer and have a look at the pics...thats what gave me my resolve to quit the thought of having my touge cut out and the disfigurement..seriously have a look...i dare you!!
    - - Kibitz
      - 2008-07-07 @ 06:48:18
      Seriously .. I will.
      
      When my resolve inevitably weakens.
      
      I'm down to ten from twenty a day.
      
      Next step .. next week .. cold turkey.
      
      Adam ... x
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- deleted user (Visitor)
- 2008-07-03 @ 12:30:56
ouch.
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- - Kibitz
  - 2008-07-03 @ 13:54:48
  Lol ..
  
  You're a Master of Understatement.
  
  There's not even an exclamation point!!!!!
  
  Adam ... x
  
  P.S. Thanks.
  - - deleted user (Visitor)
    - 2008-07-03 @ 15:53:57
    ah mate shit happens. if I had 10 pence for every woman that ever knocked me back I'd have.... 10 pence. and with that 10 pence I could buy 5 2 pence sweets. you see, I hurt too.
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- Emsbabee ^Pro
- 2008-07-03 @ 13:09:52
Boyfriend, not husband. There's hope. And relentless fantasising in the meantime.
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- - Kibitz
  - 2008-07-03 @ 13:59:38
  Mmmm ... True ... In theory there’s always hope.
  
  But I’ve shot my bolt. And I’m kinda sure her No means No however politely expressed.
  
  Reality is ... The better man won ... The End.
  
  Adam ... x
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- kendersrule ^Pro
- 2008-07-03 @ 13:55:47
sooooo, youngling, whatcha doing for your birthday?
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- - Kibitz
  - 2008-07-03 @ 14:10:01
  Quite a lot ... I hope.
  
  SW19 in the afternoon.
  
  Later - dinner and club with friends.
  
  I’ve just been paid. All shall be well.
  
  I'm feeling old already.
  
  xxx
  - - kendersrule ^Pro
    - 2008-07-03 @ 14:14:17
    lol! I'm 25!!! that's old enough to say:
    Kids today!
    in my day...
    you haven't seen Jaws?!
    What do you mean "who's Queen"?!
    
    etc
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- isadora101
- 2008-07-03 @ 14:50:29
You're not a twat and don't be embarrassed!
At least she didn't string you along with a little deception and now she knows you like her then if ever her current relationship fails then she may just remember you
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- - Kibitz
  - 2008-07-03 @ 15:25:52
  Mmm ... an interesting viewpoint.
  
  I hadn't quite thought along those lines.
  
  She was certainly honest. Always a bonus.
  
  Right. Despite my moral qualms. I shall covertly wish her relationship ill and do my best to live with the guilt.
  
  Twat - maybe not. Embarrassed - you wouldn’t believe.
  
  Adam ... x
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- sexymf ^Pro
- 2008-07-03 @ 15:57:34
He who dares etc. I applaud you and your chutzpah (okay maybe not exactly chutzpah, but I'm trying out the lingo for size and it's better than calling you a klutz...which you're not by the way). I digress, as ever...back to the point...

Well done. If you don't ask you don't get...which is a bit more Yorkshire (not that I'm Yorkshireish you understand I just reside there).

So onwards and upwards young sir...and believe me the best is yet to come. Late twenties is easily the best time: old enough to know and young enough to use it!

Happy Birthday in advance (in case I don't make it back before the impending celebrations)!!!
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- - Kibitz
  - 2008-07-03 @ 17:27:40
  Right. Gotcha. Onwards and upwards.
  
  Er ... Is it okay if I start tomorrow?
  
  Lol .. What’s this? .. Self pity ... Most unbecoming!
  
  I know ... Chutzpah .. Stop me if you’ve heard it.
  
  Definition - When you murder your parents ... then beg the Courts for mercy ... on the grounds that you’re an orphan.
  
  Birthday. You’re not coming to my party? Shoot!
  
  My day just keeps getting worse .... x
  - - sexymf ^Pro
    - 2008-07-03 @ 17:35:35
    My invite must have got lost in the post!
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- cj592 ^Pro
- 2008-07-03 @ 16:42:28
Spanish eh....
I think you had a lucky escape.
I hear the Spanish girls can wear you out just from the relentless sex. And who needs that!!!!
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.. Damn!
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  - 2008-07-03 @ 17:33:23
  Relentless sex ...
  
  Escape ...
  
  Mmm ...
  
  Is this some kinda code for bondage?
  
  Adam.
  
  P.S. Damn! Damn! Damn! Damn! And Darn!
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- Prettyintelligentprincess
- 2008-07-03 @ 19:29:14
You don't have to be Spanish for relentless sex.
x
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- - Kibitz
  - 2008-07-03 @ 19:38:40
  Lol ... That’s true.
  
  Mayhap ... one day ... I’ll find this out for myself.
  
  Er ... Have I’m mentioned I’m an optimist?
  
  Adam ... x
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- fairplay ^Pro
- 2008-07-03 @ 19:59:42
You don't try and you don't get. I'm afraid I'm all for admiring from afar. Safe, fantastical but also ultimately unfulfilling.

So to get those highs you need to hit those lows. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Dear God, I've descended into "Wham!" Have a good bit of jitterbugging for your birthday...
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  - 2008-07-04 @ 07:00:51
  Don't try - Don't get.
  
  Try - Don't get.
  
  Afar admiring holds some merit.
  
  Wham! Jitterbugging!
  
  My ignorance is Bliss.
  
  Adam.
  
  P.S.
  
  Yeah, yeah, yeah ... Isn't that The Beatles? ... She Loves You?
  
  Lol ... how very ironic ... x
  - - fairplay ^Pro
    - 2008-07-05 @ 23:58:11
    Yep, damned if you do, damned if you don't. So you may as damn well do what you want to do!
    
    Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go will explain it all...
    
    Hope the birthday and Centre Court is some recompense, it'll all come to fruition at some point I'm sure
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- deleted user (Visitor)
- 2008-07-03 @ 20:28:37
Please don't contemplate death....good things come to those that wait.... and push a little bit...x
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- - Kibitz
  - 2008-07-04 @ 07:09:09
  I certainly need to push a bit.
  
  Possibly more than a little.
  
  I’ve not had a girlfriend since April.
  
  I’m starting to feel a teensy bit lonely.
  
  But don’t worry ... a solution shall be found.
  
  Adam ... x
  - - deleted user (Visitor)
    - 2008-07-04 @ 07:13:48
    I hope so...start pushing...I know you can...x
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- middleagespread
- 2008-07-03 @ 22:33:00
It's probably best you don't share the same language. Just let the accent and foreign language wash over you as you dream.
I heard this story, and have no reason to doubt it's truth.
Girl(english) holidays in Greece, meets adonis who incidently doesn't speak a word of english. Girl and boy fall headlong in love/passion.
Girl visits boy regularly-a beautiful romance ensues.
Months pass during which time girl embarks on intensive greek lessons.
Armoured with a reasonable comprehension of the language, girl flies off to secure the man of her dreams, only to have these said dreams dashed, as now she can understand what he's saying she finds he's a complete knob.
The end.
Sweet dreams Kibitz xx
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- - Kibitz
  - 2008-07-04 @ 07:14:39
  Thanks ...
  
  An Excellent story ... Beautifully told.
  
  The moral of course works both ways.
  
  Mayhap she understood English perfectly ...
  
  And had already realised I’m - The Knob.
  
  Adam ... x
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- deleted user (Visitor)
- 2008-07-03 @ 23:24:20
Hey Kibitz,

I know how you feel. Yesterday evening, I slipped on a discarded pie and fell over outside the CO-OP. My face went as red as a cherry!

May I suggest that you ask out all the women at work one by one. This will create the impression that you are simply a lecherous oaf, thereby eliminating any feelings of embarrassment.

Good Luck

Keith
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- - Kibitz
  - 2008-07-04 @ 07:19:12
  Hey Keith,
  
  Mmm .. I see ..
  
  A similar concept to my running through the pain barrier.
  
  The familiarity lessens the impact.
  
  Good plan ...One draw back.
  
  My masochistic appreciation’s a tad undeveloped.
  
  Methinks I may need a Help Group.
  
  Adam ... x
  - - deleted user (Visitor)
    - 2008-07-04 @ 08:05:41
    Reading my suggestion again in the cold light of day, I realise how utterly stupid I have been (again). I apologise comprehensively.
    
    How about taking "cooking lessons"? You might meet a few girls and learn to cook at the same time! Colleges are full of girls...get yourself on a part-time course pronto.
    
    Happy Birthday for tomorrow.
    
    Keith
    - - Kibitz
      - 2008-07-04 @ 16:48:25
      Learn to cook - Very practical.
      
      The bonus ingredient - College girls.
      
      That actually makes excellent sense.
      
      Night Class - Here I come!
      
      Adam.
      
      P.S. How you know it's tomorrow escapes me but Birthday Wishes most gratefully received. Thank You ... And farewell ... Have an awesome weekend. I'm logged off till Monday ... x
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- nuvolenere
- 2008-07-04 @ 19:14:33
aw thank you so much! i was just going to wish you a lovely birthday as well (and for the post.. aaahhh i know what you mean..)

xx
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  - 2008-07-07 @ 06:27:01
  Lol ...
  
  I’m starting to think everyone knows what I mean.
  
  Been there. Done that. Yawn ....
  
  Thanks for birthday wishes.
  
  I hope your day held something really special.
  
  Adam ... x
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- happy28 ^Pro
- 2008-07-04 @ 21:48:58
well if you're gone til monday I HOPE YOUR HANGOVER ISN'T TOO BAD!!! Sorry, couldn't resist.

either the woman will realise the error of her ways, or you'll meet an even nicer lady, who will spend hours in the bedroom AND teaching you how to cook (and I'm not talking about a housekeeper). *blushes* smut? me never!

Anyway, I'm sure there are some single ladies here in blogland who would be happy to fulfill that role!

ps - you're approaching birthday is sent out by email to all your friends here and appears on our homepage things.

x
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  - 2008-07-07 @ 06:35:29
  LOL .. NO! .. MY HANGOVER‘S NOT TOO BAD!!!!
  
  Not today anyway. Yesterday - Ugh!
  
  Single women on blog .. Mmm .. Maybe I should attend one of those blog meets I keep reading about.
  
  Only drawback .. anyone interested would soon uncover my less endearing .. er .. quirks.
  
  Email notifications ... Gotcha. I’d assumed people opted into that particular feature.
  
  Blushes .. Stupid? ... Me? .. Never!
  
  Adam ... x
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- Miza-T
- 2008-07-05 @ 01:16:01
Happy Birthday Adam!!

Forget the spanish girl, portuguese are much better
And, please don't feel embarassed! I'm 100% sure she's absolutely delighted by the atention, and I bet she' still thinking about you...in her dreams

Happy Birthday! Again!

xx
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  - 2008-07-07 @ 06:40:40
  Thanks ... x ... two.
  
  Portuguese girls are better ... Absolutely.
  
  The evidence - see upper top left of box above.
  
  Adam .. x
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- deleted user (Visitor)
- 2008-07-05 @ 08:16:10
Better luck next time! And have a great birthday!
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  - 2008-07-07 @ 06:44:02
  Thanx ... I did.
  
  Next time ... I will.
  
  Have better luck ... I hope.
  
  Adam ... x
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- 2008-07-05 @ 08:57:37
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  - 2008-07-05 @ 15:22:59
  My mum's birthday cake went up in smoke like that and set the alarms off !
  
  Many happies Adam...
  
  You'll be over her by Monday...
  - - Kibitz
    - 2008-07-07 @ 07:01:32
    Er ... over whom exactly?
    
    Lol ... I know ... way too obvious.
    
    In my defence - it is still relatively early.
    
    Adam ... x
    
    P.S. Thanks for Happies.
    
    P.P.S. Cake ... alarms ... sprinklers too?
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      - 2008-07-07 @ 09:08:50
      We had to make do with the garden hose...
      
      Stll ate the cake though...after it had dried out...
      
      You're so over whassername !
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- - Kibitz
  - 2008-07-07 @ 06:51:21
  Amazing dude .. thanks.
  
  Two cakes - Both hot.
  
  Lol ... You know me too well.
  
  Adam ... x
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- 2008-07-05 @ 10:44:18
Happy birthday xx
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  - 2008-07-07 @ 07:04:53
  Thank you.
  
  It was.
  
  Very.
  
  Adam ... xx
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- QueeneMab
- 2008-07-05 @ 20:45:10
Aw!

The world is full of beautiful women and soon you will find the right one for you. Take your time choosing or you might pick the wrong one.

Many Happy Returns for your Birthday - hope it is a good one.

X
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  - 2008-07-07 @ 07:15:24
  Sound advice.
  
  I shall be patient.
  
  Any rumours I'm desperate are greatly exaggerated.
  
  Adam ... x
  
  P.S. Thanks .. it was.
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- kendersrule ^Pro
- 2008-07-06 @ 03:24:46
Damnit! had major nap today (yesterday) so totally wasn't able to wish you a happy birthday!
Oh well you're not here till monday anyways!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

xxx x xxx
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  - 2008-07-07 @ 07:23:27
  THANKS!!!
  
  Late not never.
  
  I quite understand. I know my place.
  
  Major naps always take precedence ... Adam.
  
  xxx
  - - kendersrule ^Pro
    - 2008-07-07 @ 12:42:50
    *giggle*
    started my nap at 4ish... was hardly expecting midnight to be my wakeup time!
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- deleted user (Visitor)
- 2008-07-23 @ 19:15:23
Wow! you are so popular,what can i say enjoy it.
Being in love is fun too your feet wont touch the ground, make the best of it,its really just a feeling that does not always last.
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  - 2008-07-24 @ 07:03:23
  Sad but true ...
  
  Love doesn’t always last.
  
  Kinda depressing really ...
  
  Considering it’s almost impossible to find.
  
  If - no - when.
  
  I’m loved and love in equal measure ...
  
  I’ll do all I can to ensure its survival.
  
  Adam ... x
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